A reason behind string of affairs
I used to be always on guard with my Mom. And it had been like that since I had my first affair at the tender age of 13, as far as I allow myself to remember. But if I force my brain to think hard enough, I was never comfortable or ever felt safe to express myself as a child in front of her. She had a temperament problem and getting married at the age of 17 in a large family didn't help at all. While growing up, only physically now I am aware, I would somehow always find myself in a very painful and loathsome situation with her. And this continued till I got married after a string of affairs with guys always few years older than me. I fought tooth and nail to marry the guy who is now my husband. Finally after 6 yrs of dreaming and weaving unrealistic stories of true love and unending romance I was with someone who according to my distorted perception would do a wonderful work of 'Loving' me. I had won. I had escaped Hell and entered Heaven for onc...